House Plans

May He give you the desire of you heart,
and make all your plans succeed
psalms 20:4

I just about fell onto the floor today when my husband, who just woke up from a hard night of throwing papers, matter of factly said, I decided we are going to sell our house. He was eating lunch or breakfast to him, so I sat at the table, with ears fully alert to hear this plan of his. I must remind you, that I have been wanting to move and get a new house for years, but have been silently praying about this for a very long time, and handed it all over to God, who of course has felt silent in this matter, but little did I know He was speaking to my husband all along. In fact, I believe my husband even got a little nudge the other day, when we got a phone call to awaken the hope in us both. So I was sitting at the table, ready to hear what was next, and I was in awe, he started talking about getting this house ready to sell, fixing it up, and Believing, it was going to sell. Believing, Benji is believing!! God is really doing something in him. I wanted to jump up and down, and be his biggest cheerleader! My husband has always dreamed of building us our dream house, and I believe this dream is going to come true, I know how proud he would be of himself, to fulfill this dream for me, and our family. At this point in our conversation, him talking me listening with my mouth almost hitting the floor in amazement to the words coming out of his mouth, I had to fight back the tears with everything in me. I didn't want him to see me get to excited, because he fears of failing me, but he never would, I love him just the way he is, and if our life stayed exactly this way until we died, I would love him the same, and even more. I wanted to cry, because he has no idea, the answer to so many prayers were coming out of his mouth. Many of my friends know of the struggle I've had with wanting a new house, wanting it so bad, so this is huge. I don't just believe God is going to give us a house, but He is going to give Benji his dreams, dreams I have just grown to learn, he has had since he was a child. Benji was always building, and he still loves to construct new things, something comes alive in him, when he creates things for us and the kids. I've heard countless stories of when he was little, he was always outside building forts, and tree houses, constructing things for all to enjoy. I really believe it was something God put inside him, desires, and gifts, for his future. All these years how wrong I had it, praying on my behalf, wanting the house for my dreams, praying for myself. Well lately I have been praying for God to awaken Benji's dreams and his purpose, I had no idea what God was doing, I stopped thinking of me, and really with all my heart have been praying for Benji, isn't it amazing that when I started praying for my husband, both our dreams are going to get filled. Isn't God so good, I have to pause and thank Him again. I really thought when I was praying for my husband, God was going to open doors for Benji to play his bass or be used for other gifts, but God always knows what He is doing! I even laid down the whole house thing, saying I could live in these little walls forever, it that is what I had to do. Well as Benji was telling me all the things he was going to be doing, he said I would like to put the house on the market in January, I was like this January, he said yes. wow, what, that's only like 3 months, I never said any of this because I wasn't about to let him think I doubted his plan, because not a inch of me did. I wanted him to know i supported and trusted any decision he said. The what if's began playing in my mind, but he said, We'll just have to trust and believe that everything will fall into place. We might have to lease a place or move in with some relatives, if our house sells, but we have to live for our dream, right? We even got online and began looking at house plans, and right away found the exact house plans we had talked and dreamt about. Plans that had a wrap a round porch and windows that come out of the roof,( dormers, Benji always tells me they're called), 5 bedrooms, a room I could turn into an after school room, I could go on and on, about how it's perfect. We just need land, which I believe we are going to get and to sell our house. It could take a long time to sell our house, who knows, only God, but I believe God is in this 100% I believe that everything is going to fall into it's perfect place, I believe as Jacque is watching her husbands dreams unfold, I'm watching my husbands, it just took me a little longer to figure it out.

I'm asking for everyones prayers in this, please get behind us, that everything will fall into place. That when our world is telling us this can not happen, God is bigger, He's a dream maker, a purpose filler, our hope, our strength, our guide, He is the answer. I honestly can say I want this, but I want this more for Benji then I do myself.

Commit to the Lord whatever you do
and your plans will succeed
proverbs 16:3

Many are the plans in a man's heart
but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails
proverbs 19:21