who am I?

I don't know what this is, these thoughts and feeling, they seem so new, so foreign. I trying to figure out if it's a lesson being taught this road I am traveling. I trying to see if it's time to let go. Time to move on, time to release the old, and step into the new. I just can't seem to figure out what this new is. I'm trying to move, but have no idea where it is I am going. I don't feel like me, I feel less, I feel powerless, lost in thoughts that I don't understand. Insecurities, that I've never had before. I hate what I feel that I am becoming, I don't feel strong, I don't feel I have the answers this time, I don't feel You speaking, or guiding, and it's leaving me unsure, it's making me question when did I walk away, or turn around, or just stop. Honestly I feel alone, moving in my own direction, that I can't escape. I'm feeling older, and unsure, questioning have I done right up until now. Am I where You want me to be, watching others going in a direction that use to be my own, now I'm going ahead without those few to understand. I'm entering a new stage, and I know it and I feel it, but I haven't let go. I haven't let go, of the comfortableness of who I use to be, and am honestly scared because I don't know yet how to be this new thing I am going to become. I guess I can't move, when I haven't let go, that seems so simple, yet I believe one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. If I let go, will You're hand be there to help, will it be there to walk next to me, and at times take over and lead? I know it's time to let go, I know I can't enjoy life if I'm not walking through it. I can't sit on the side lines, when the game is the best place to be. It's time to let go, time to follow again, time to listen and find, time to experience the greatness of this life You have given me. So today even though with sadness I let go, I have so much joy in those moments already given, I have hope for far better and greater moments to come. I will trust that Your hand is in mine right now, and Your voice has become stronger, and that You right now are leading and guiding me, until I can walk side by side on my own with You, truly enjoying this next journey, when my eyes are opened to all You really have to offer. Take my hand...I'm letting go.