Birdie

This may be one of the hardest things for me to write, due to the emotion behind it. The past years I have wasted to many tear on this lie. I have let it in, brought it along with me all my life, into my marriage, and on to my kids, I have carried it into friendships, and even have given up on some of these friendships. Last night I recognized this for what it really is, a lie, spoken to me since I was to young to remember how or when it became apart of me. I've played the victim role to long, I've believed that I had the right to this lie. I've let in pride, thinking that I deserved more than what was given to me, always needing people's approval for the sake of not being Forgotten, because if I had all this I knew that I was not forgotten. Last night I was asked a question "what it is that the devil uses on you.." To get me distracted from what God says, for Gods purpose in my life, my marriage, as a mother, as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend. Forgotten was all I heard, that I am, and always have been forgotten. This lie has brought me to tears so many times I can't even begin to tell you how many. My poor husband what he has had to go through to remind me I am not forgotten. It's so bad that in any situation, I can just say "well see I was forgotten once again" The other night my nephew fell and got a scull fracture, and no-one called me, I had no idea, instead of calling my brother to make sure my nephew was o.k. (which please don't get me wrong I prayed and was terrified for him, and talked to my sister who reassured me he was fine) I thought of course my family didn't call me, because they always forget about me. I could go on and on about times i've been "hurt" (I choose to be hurt, nobody really hurt me, i've played the victim role) in my life because I felt I was forgotten. Last night I decided, Satan you will not deceive me anymore!!! I will not listen to this lie, I will not let it rule me and bring me away from my destiny. I will not let it divide my marriage anymore! I will not bring this onto my children, were they learn how to play the forgotten role! I will not seclude myself from my family for the so called hurt they caused me. I will not let my friends be effected in my friendships anymore! I'm done, I'm throwing into the fiery furnace, I know that I'm still going to get attacked, but last night I also learned by knowing God's word, we can stop the devil from speaking these lies, by simply but powerfully speaking God's truth.

All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness so that the man of God be complete and proficient, well filled, and throughly equipped for every good work.
2 Timothy 3:16,19

I set out this morning to find the truth in God's word, so that I could speak the truth, and rebuke the devil. So that I could correct and repent of living this lie. Many of my friends already know that when I worry I remind myself that I am more than a bird, when Jesus tells us not to worry, He says doesn't God feed the birds, they don't have to plant or harvest, it's there for them, God feeds them, He says you are worth much more than birds. Your Father knows your every need. Well through another bird story Jesus used, I have learned I am not forgotten. In Luke 12:6-7 Jesus is talking about 5 sparrows being sold for only 2 pennies, and God does not forget them. This is much lower than they are worth, as if I've felt I was and have been treated for much less than I am worth. Sometimes maybe I was treated wrong, and others times it was a lie, but none the less, It was a lie from the enemy. Jesus goes on to say But God (one of my favorite things my pastor ever taught me, was the power in the words BUT GOD, how it cancels out what was said before by the power in God, that when things look impossible, the word always says BUT GOD, WoW! {-shout out to Pastor Rick }, then the scripture says what God did, or what He says) But God even knows how many hairs you have on your head. Don't be afraid. You are worth much more than many sparrows. From no on when I feel forgotten, when the devil tries to lie to me when all circumstances say that I have been forgotten, or neglected, I will say But God says that I have not been forgotten I am much more than many sparrows!!!! That He knows and cares about every little detail of who I am, He has not, and will not forget about me!

I was sitting there asking myself why do I relate to birds so much, I just heard the word "birdie"spoken to me like when I was a child, with the affection and love behind it, as so many people would call out to me and I don't think it was a mistake that my nickname was "birdie" growing up. Another reminder that God knows just the perfect way to reveal himself to each and everyone of us. I feel as though a weight has been lifted off me that I have been carrying way, way, to long!
Praise God for Who He is, What He is doing, and for His Power given to each and every one of us