And They Lived.....

I've put myself on pause, I like the scene that was playing and wanted to keep it right where it was. I didn't want to know what was going to happen next, I wanted things to stay right as they were. I was afraid of what is to come, a change in the plot, I'm happy right where I am, I thought if I just pressed the pause button, everything would be good, I would just enjoy what was on the screen before me. I would have my dreams with out them being crushed, or even coming true, I didn't want to know, I liked just having them as a possibility, talking about them only as they are, a dream. An idea, a picture that has not been drawn, a script, with no actors. I like the scene I was in. I soon noticed just that, the one scene, I wasn't changing, I wasn't growing, I didn't have new exciting moments, I felt every time I looked at myself I was the same, yes I looked happy, but there was this deeper crying that there has to be more. So I've decided to press play, even though things may not go according to the way I hope and dream, even though I don't have the script in front of me to see what is going to happen next, He has it, He knows and I know I'll have moments of victories, with some moments of hurt along the way, but I know He is in control. I know He is writing the next pages of my life, it's just up to me to press play. So today I'm pressing play, no matter what happens, I'm going to live for the next scene, yet enjoying the scene I am in today. I realize I lost myself, because I wasn't living for what God had for me, I was holding on to what I wanted. I know in every great movie the main character always gets her happy ending, and I'm believing that God has already written my happy ending. I'm living for my .....Happily Ever After.