Uncompleted

I must say I'm so sorry to You, the lessons You have laid out before me, are going uncompleted. In all Your wonderful ways, You have been trying to teach me, to prepare me, and I have been ignoring the lesson for reasons I can't explain. I know You have tests laid out before me, so I can grow, learn and become the person You created me to be. I keep asking You to show me who I really am, You know Lord with all you infinite wisdom, the best way I learn is by doing, by touching and experimenting. I've wanted the answer key, so I could just past the test, but You Lord, know that I need to truly understand, to grasp the lessons laid out before me, so that I can have full confidence in myself.

I wanted you to whisper the answers in my ear, give me all I needed to know, tell me who I am. I've been waiting for this, while all along, You were handing me lessons, so I would know for myself who I am. You know I need this, this is why You are the teacher, and I am the student.

I am going to complete the lessons, and start preparing for the test, so when things get thrown at me, I can stand with full confidence in who I am in You. I will no longer only repeat what I have heard, but speak what I believe and know with all my heart. I will be able to say, I went through that, that lesson was laid out before me, and this is what I have learned. I will be able to direct my achievements, and my greatest accomplishments, to the greatest teacher of all, You Lord.