for these moments

I feel like me again, it's about time. I found new hope and inspirations, let go of things I couldn't change, stopped, set aside dreams and ideas that were no longer mine to hold on to, went to God and surrendered it all, something that I needed to do, but didn't for words I can't explain, not out of rebellion, I don't think He asked me to yet, waiting like He perfectly does to reveal why I'm not moving, why I felt so lonely, why I was hurting. I have a new found hope, it's simple really, just enjoy the moments I have been given. I'm a big dreamer, always wanting more, new exciting things, that sometimes the people, and things in my life get neglected for these dreams that I hold on to. As this holiday season has come to an end, and a new year, my life has slowed, giving me the time, to stop and think about the things I need to change, and the things I need to live for. As I stopped to just enjoy my house, locking my self in for days and days, I realized inside my house is where I belong, yes I still need my friends and family, they are all apart, but when I was watching my daughter reading to my youngest child, and a tear crept down my face, this was a moment I realized I lived for. As my son, Cohen, has been batteling bathroom issues, and a bribe ended up being the right motivation, as he claimed his prize and walked through our door and my heart could have exploded, seeing this child happy to me is another moment I live for. My kids laughing, playing, learning and growing are my greatest joys. Even making stew for my husband, the newest attempt in my low cooking abilities, ended up being a gift to me. I never knew there was so much satisfaction in cooking for him, but when he tasted it, and said, oh my..that is good! It was this moment that I knew I live for taking care of him, and giving of myself so that I could always see that joy in him. My new years and lifes resolution is to live for these moments, speak for these moments, play for these moments, hope for these moments, give for these moments, pray for these moments... I changed my blog title "for these moments." It's these moments that I love and want to hold on to, that even made me realize how much I love photography, and will be taking classes to grow and learn in one of my greatest passions I have. I'm going to live for what I have, and what God has in store for me. I'm going to capture every moment I can while I'm here on this earth and imprint it on my heart. To find the gifts in every moment that I can, and to take the time to slow down, and be who I was created to be.