I will not fail you, because He will not fail me

This question has been plaguing me for too long. Am I good parent, am I really doing the best for my kids? My patients just hasn't been around lately, and I feel it's been stretched to it's limit in different situations. This is very emotional for me, because I want to be a great parent. I know I will not be perfect, and who says I have to be. I just haven't felt good enough, after going to the doctor today, with my most difficult and challenging child, I left in tears with the realization that I lost control somewhere down the line. I found myself feeling defeated with all of his issues, and feeling like I failed him at some point. The doctor commented on his behavioral issues, a.k.a, not listening and hyperactive. She even used the term ADHD which I think is a load. I know my child, I know his little ways, yes he's stubborn, but he knows what he wants, he just hasn't figured out how to use this characteristic in a good way, isn't that our job as parents? To teach our kids how to use their gifts and characteristics for a greater good. I realize I'm making mistakes, the biggest right now is trying to do this on my own, I've been asking advise from others, when I should be asking the One who mad him. I forget this sometimes, to first ask God to give me direction as a parent, I usually come to Him when I feel all is lost, then as usual He gives me hope and the tools I need, I just need to bring it to Him first, so I will be confident as a parent. I have been failing my child in a way, not seeking God for his life and his purpose is not giving my child everything he needs. I would go up and say how sorry I am, that I haven't understood him, that I haven't been the best mommy I can be, that I love him more than he could ever know, and I will never stop no matter what, I love him just the way he is, and i'm so thankful for who God made him, that even with all his difficulties, he's perfect and I wouldn't change him, I'm going to allow God to do His work and I won't get in the way, that I'm going to allow him to be a boy even in a world that thinks we need to "tame" our boys, I'm not going to let people tell me what I should be doing with him, but seek God, and yes I'll discipline when it's out of rebellion because God's word tells me to do so, but it will be out of love and not out of anger or pride. I would go up and tell him all this, but he would just look at me like I lost my mind and he most likelywould not understand, so I'll just hug and kiss him, and say I love you just the way you are, and allow God to speak the rest into his tiny little soul. I will fail, if on my own, but thankfully I have God and His spirit will guide me, and I will not be alone. I know I'll still make mistakes, but by His blood He will cover me, and protect my children. After all, my children belong to God, and to Him they will stay, and I wouldn't want it any other way.