I've missed you

I was just about to start reading a new book, when I stopped to talk to God. I just looked out the window, and uttered the words I miss you, because I've felt so far away, like we haven't been communicating right, or I went on a trip and now I'm back. As I uttered the words I missed you, I felt as if the Lord said "yes you have." That was not what I thought I should here, I thought He would say He missed me too, so glad to have you back, like any other person would say, but I guess my little mind always forgets this is God! He doesn't miss anything. We often say those words,I've missed you with a different meaning behind it, as in I've longed for you, not really meaning MISS, as in didn't notice, didn't catch, fell short of receiving. But when I heard the words "yes you have" it hit me, I realized how much I did miss God, how much I didn't see, because I wasn't looking at what He was doing, always showing me Him, revealing me His love, longing for my attention. "yes you have" our words that have changed me, I missed Him in so many ways, when He was showing me His love for me, when I look outside and see the very works of His hands and I failed to thank Him for it. I have failed to see God, because I haven't been looking, I've been waiting, for Him to show up, but how can something show up that has never left. I often wonder when will I get it? When will I just hold on to what I know, instead of getting deceived by what I feel. It's disappointing how easily I can miss Him, but I'm so grateful how He will always let me see. I'm sorry I've missed the Lord lately, all that He has been doing for just me, I guess sometimes I forget to see Him in everything. In the yesterday of His creations, in the today of His makings, and in forever of what is to come. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He can not be missed.