In one day

I have been thinking a lot about the power in one day, in one day you can create or you can destroy. It's amazing what God created in one day, we all know the story, He created the light and darkness on one day, then the sky, then the land, and so on until He created every living creation including man. I'm sure a lot of thought came into play when He created things, I can just imagine, like an artist creating His masterpiece, how much careful thought went into every detail of the different kinds of light, through the sun, the moon, and all those millions and millions of stars, to the sky, starting with a blank canvas, adding touches of blue, and purples and pinks for the beautiful sunset, and creating how day and evening would look. I could go on and on, just about God's perfect creation. When He created man, He created us to walk and talk with Him, with nothing getting in our way, how glorious this must have been. But in one day, man destroyed the very way God created us to be in relationship with Him, because of disobedience leading to sin. Thankfully not all was destroyed, and God was creating a new plan, to bring us back in relationship with Him, through His son Jesus. Thankfully, we still had the world He created for us, and all the wonderful things in it, we just lost the most important part of His creation, our close relationship, now it would become difficult to have a walking, talking, real relationship.

The reason I've been thinking about this is because of a question I have been asking myself, When? When did my relationship with God go from feeling like I was in a close relationship, to whom I talked with and felt extremely close to, to lately feeling like I went on vacation and I need catch up time with a close friend. I have never known the relationship Adam and Eve had with God, and I wouldn't have wanted to be them, knowing the real way, experiencing it, then to have lost it. Thankfully one day we will have what Adam and Eve had in the garden, to walk with the Lord ,and never lose it. Oh I can't wait! Well I have been close to God, feeling Him, knowing Him through His word, obeying Him, experiencing the blessings on my life. But lately I have felt I lost something, I believe it happened in a matter of one day, just by not taking the time to be with Him, or by disobedience and hiding from Him. I can't pin point the day, I most likely don't even realize how it happened, but it did. The problem, one day led to another and another, of not being with God, not growing and strengthening our relationship. I know I didn't do this on purpose, believe me I want to know God, sometimes I just get so caught up in me, and feel to busy, that I just lose that one day. Thankfully I don't lose everything, God is always there waiting to forgive me, and restore our relationship.

I'm sick of the circle's, going round and round in my relationship with God, feeling close to feeling distant. I need to learn that everyday counts! That I can create my relationship and make it something beautiful, filling in all the details, painting it perfectly with my creator, or I can destroy it. I know destroy is a strong word, and that what is already created has not been lost, but if I am not building something up, I'm either not building it to its full potential for what I originally created it be, or I am slowly tearing it down. I just believe if we are not doing all we can to become who God has created us to be, we are destroying the very purpose God has created us for. We are allowing other distractions, from the enemy, to be in perfect relationship with our God. I don't know about you, but I am sick of destroying what I could have created!!

Sin is our destroyer, it comes in all shapes, sizes, disguises, and voices. Whether we believe it or not, we choose to sin. If our relationship with God is lacking , or we feel unhappy, I think we need to ask God to reveal the sin in our lives, that is destroying our relationship and our very purpose. It always amazes me, when I think I have a clean slate, and still feel unhappy, God always reveals unforgiveness in my heart, selfish motives, pride, I could go on and on, after all the bible says not one of us is with out blame.

I was asking God this morning to restore our relationship, I was explaining to Him how I wanted to feel happy, and stop having the ups and the downs, to be content, after realizing that my relationship was feeling less then it should because of one day leading to other day, then to God also revealing this scripture to me. Happy is the person who's sins are forgiven, whose wrongs are pardoned. Happy is the person whom the Lord does not consider guilty and in whom there is nothing false. When I kept things to myself, I felt weak deep inside of me. I moaned all day long. Psalms 32:1-3 this is when it hit me, I need to be forgiven, and then allow God to restore my relationship with Him. I could do all I can to be happy, but if God hasn't forgiven me daily of my sins, I will never feel happy. This chapter in psalms goes on to say after we confess our sins and are free from guilt, The Lord says, "I will make you wise and show you were to go, I will guide you and watch over you" vs 8. This is why I felt lost, God couldn't do His work in me, until He revealed what I needed to let go of first. That in a matter of one day, of not spending time, I was destroying my relationship with Him. I will never be happy if my happiness is not in Him alone! I can search and try to find happiness in other things, but unless I am in perfect relationship with God I will never be truly happy. Every day counts in building this relationship. It has to be God's way and God's way alone.