The longest day ever

I keep looking at the clock, hoping that it will tell me something different, the time it actually feels. I'm having one of those long, slowly going by kind of days. I look at the clock and it only says 4:00 I feel like it should be 8 or 9 pm, and I should be getting the kids ready for bed, It feel like my husband should be just walking in the door to give me one of those hugs I need so bad today. It was beautiful out today, I should have taken the kids out, but the mud on the ground made for a bigger problem, and way more work then I needed today. I having one of those days, where if I'm not careful I could get into trouble with my thoughts. so instead I come here, in hopes that I can express something, and leave feeling I passed some time. I started to get dinner ready, but we usually don't eat this early so once again, the time is creeping by. I don't think my kids have stopped crying or fighting today, and I feel that I am going to lose my mind. I have had back talk in my house, and have heard hurtful sharp words come out of my kids mouths, and have wondered where did I go wrong, and in all this feel overwhelmed at the task of head of correcting there behavior, with out losing my temper, or emotions. Ashlyn has been wanting to potty train herself, insisting that she stand like a boy, ending up peeing on my floor. Cohen has been crying that Hayden stole his car, while the sound of cars being pushed up and down the hallway seems like nails on the chalkboard at the moment. Leighton has been getting hurt all day, it feels like every minute I turn around something tragic has happen to her. Brennan is upset with me, because I wouldn't let him go to his friends house that I don't know or trust his parents, so instead I let him have his cousin Noah over, which just happens to be the loudest child on earth. So yes I have a very loud and full house tonight, and all i want to do is get in my car and go to a quiet bookstore, but Benji won't be home till later tonight. I can't wait for church in the morning where for a brief time, I get to give my children to others to watch, and have some time to worship and hopefully recieve a message to give me some strengths that I need so badly right now. But if I focus on tomorrow, today is going to go so much slower, so instead I'm going to walk away, pick up that child that is crying right by my side, go tell those kids to settle down, and get ready to cook dinner, now that I wasted a few more moments in the longest day ever.